MrazmaryCarabelle♥

//Sunday, March 18, 2012 6:07 PM

BIGBANG - BLUE M/V

Have no idea at all why am I actually listening to korean songs now,
which I usually don't, cause I can't understand what they singing at all *roll eyes*

but, hahah, it's actually quite nice though I have total zero idea what they singing. ;)

//Friday, March 16, 2012 12:47 AM

Mr. Know It All

//Wednesday, March 14, 2012 12:06 AM

Ambitious.

View back my blog post. and I'm totally shock.

wtf am i writing ? like seriously.

Is there anyone out there who are just like me ?

when I'm about to fall asleep,

I tend to write nonsense and scribbler on my paper work, so on typing.

I can be writing an essay

and woke up the next morning realizing it ends with math equations,

and mixed with some chinese words and maybe some words that i have no idea at all what it is.

I tend to say something abnormal and funny when I'm half sleeping.

There's a night where i woke up suddenly,

and my phone rang, coincidentally.

I'm walking like a sleepwalker,

I heard the noise, but without realizing it's my phone ringtone.

I bet sis was quite shock,

I actually repeatedly shouting sorry at her when she's telling me,

" meii, your phone.."

I walk out the room just like that, like a dead body with no soul.

*craps, this is creepy now -.- *

i walked straight to the toilet, siting on the toilet bowl,

oh well, I'm awake. as in real awake.

Is like a bell rang beside my ear and woke me up to use my brain and rethink.

I'm pretty shock by my abnormal action, but mostly filled with the super embarrassing feeling.

went back to my room. act like I'm still sleepy,

I said to my sis,

" Ignore me,

I damn tired I don't know what am I saying just now,

ignore my phone also laa..nights ! "

Then, cover myself with blanket, continue sleeping.

E.Exam in 4 days time.

visiting juniors in 2 days time,

Having gathering and dinner with dog trainers in 3 days time,

Field Trip in between exams period,

Lots more things that are not mention happening in this month, March

Gahh, I'm so gonna pluck off a wing from the Time,

It's flying fast tho.

Anyhow,

March, it's still an exciting month,

where i go through up and down,

being emotional, and being freaking hyper and out of control.

and I might ditch my blog for a period during my exams i guess. ):

//Tuesday, March 13, 2012 1:30 AM

Eye Mo - my new best friend.

Washed up,

and I hope I didn't actually hurt my eyes these few days.

clearing off make up always make my eyes feeling uncomfortable.

Eye-mo is always needed badly for the irritation.

or it's because the lack of sleep ? ROFL.

whatever it is. gahh. :D

This might sounds jakun,

but ahh, feel so artistic every time when i'm holding a eyeliner,concealer etc.

Got a feeling like imma doing some great art work #LikeAnArtist. :P

//Monday, March 12, 2012 11:05 PM

Sesame Street: Outdoors with Jason Mraz

awww.. sooo cute ! :D

//Saturday, March 10, 2012 11:46 PM

Mrazmary Carabelle ?

Dip Dye !

It's a trend for 2012 :O

I like the BLACK HAIR WITH BLUE DIP DYE in the last picture !!

gahh, if only my hair is still long /:

Look up ! What you see ?

It's my title, if anyone realize that I made some changes to my blog.

Mrazmary Carabelle ? WTF ?!

^ That's basically where Carabelle came from.

and ikr, wth is Mrazmary ?

~~MEANINGLESS~~

Rofl. It's just the combination of JasonMraz and Mary. That's all ?

I like JasonMraz, and I'm requested to put my name as Mary.

"Thanks" to this bimbo. :D

Darlini ♥

A super fun person ((:

and my camwhore-mate ! *pat pat* (;

Mrazmary Carabelle TanTzia-E ?

hahah. yeah, for now.

// 8:01 PM

I Won't Give Up

I can just keep on repeating this song like forever mann :D
Jason Mraz is just sooo fantastic.
Like his voice a lot, it's so unique, so warm.
after all, his "im yours" is my favourite song too ♥

I was repeating "i'm yours" 24/7 three years ago.
Found the song at my part time working place.
till all my part time mate were complaining and asked to change it. :P

urghh, *melts* his voice is shoooooooo...... just ♥ it !

i hope i wouldn't give up, but seem like i have to, sometime, perhaps.

//Friday, March 9, 2012 5:53 PM

Day and Night, Friday.

Went college with a simple make up, by myself.

and a pair of violet red pump heels.

I simply love Friday ♥

Had a small simple belated birthday celebration with huiyi.

spent a rather relaxing night with them.

It's fun to hang out with all the babes.

Thought it's just purely gossips, camwhore, and laughter.

And when you're needing your space

To do some navigating,

I'll be here patiently waiting,

To see what you find

-I won't give up- Jason Mraz

//Thursday, March 8, 2012 11:35 PM

When it breaks.

aww my bunny ):

it suddenly fall off from the shelf and broke /:

thought i would need some strength to take control of myself,

big big sigh, disappointed.

cause you never care, sucha fishmonger.

it's okay,

things will be alright, I still believe.

College should have be alright.

I need some college mate indeed. hahah.

as in some close mates.

So antisocial these days, or maybe all the while, I am.

When you feel the pain, though remained silence,

you know is time for you learn to be independent.

hey, did you even thought of where the heck i have been this few days,

since the last word of "ttyl" ?

Ego and unwillingness make believe that you do.

cause i was waiting for even a reply of "okayy"

sorry for everything, thought it would be better that way,

but somehow i guess i'm wrong.

cause things are over,

I didn't take it as a something precious,

cause i never thought that i will lose it one day.

and ended up i'm the only one

who says everything of my life, throwing complains and making guesses.

I'm over excited after the long depressed days

calm down, and rethink. I know it would never recover.

cause this time,

I starts to afraid, sucha useless timid mouse?

but yaa.

On the progress of learning to be brave tho,

like a child of 3-afraid of nothing.

//Wednesday, March 7, 2012 11:43 PM

周杰倫你好嗎《杰威爾官方》Jay Chou "How Are You" Official MV

I have been watching video and listening song the whole night...

with my books in front of me, sigh.

// 10:29 PM

We Are Young

This world is on my side, I have no reason to run.

// 6:23 PM

Bonjour ! :D

Happy 18th Birthday humann.

At the new environment, with all the new friends,

and I'm here to wish u have a great day over there ! (; have a blast !

I miss the olden days, a lot, but still,

we can't stay at a same spot like forever.

So keep going on, All the best in everything,

and we'll meet again when you're back again ! ;)

looking forward to see a whole new you,

perhaps, some new ideas on your “divine laws"

JOYEUX ANNIVERSAIRE !

Milk loacker is ♥

College was challenging,

Today, well, I kinda feel bad. ): not doing so well for the whole day.

my physic lab assessment is one of the best example.

Totally epic fail !

I stared at the questions, asking myself : "seriously ?! what's this ? :O"

The lab was like a freezer, cold max.

periods made me feel even not well. sigh.

hopeless i though, simply, i just wrote what i think i shall write,

no matter how, it will still wrong, so.. at least fill it up.

close the thin booklet of assessment.

" ......this paper is 2% of the whole......"

that's what caught my attention. Thank God.

at least it's not 8% or even 5% that kills. :3

anyway,

check this out peeps ! ♥

JOSEPH KONY 2012

It's indeed a great, touching video.

.Joseph Kony 2012.-make it visible.

Aloha ;)

// 1:08 AM

Not Enough Sleep

Happy 18th Birthday HuiYi <3

May all your dreams come true babe (;

have serious bad headache these 2 days,

wasn't feeling well, dizzy from the moment i woke up,

till back to bed.

Day wasn't totally fine.

but i'm pretty enjoying.

at least there's some moment that i get high and play hard.

owh well, i got 3 hours+ to sleep now. mann.

should update again next time,

perhaps, a proper one without complains.

am i too selfish to hold u on ? i hate guessing game, like seriously.

煩哪 !

//Monday, March 5, 2012 12:31 AM

aloha (;

//Saturday, March 3, 2012 12:07 PM

Keep Going On ! Hwaiting ! ;D

Have to complete my biology's presentation slide by today.

and lots more others stuff of course.

woke up with a rather bad mood.

thinking and listing all my works.

Tried hard to control, but failed, again, I send out a complain.

Went downstairs, baby hershey looking at me with again that innocent eyes.

aww, baby, you are freaking FAT freaking HEAVY !!

but it's okay ♥ hugs*

MARCH

It's really gonna be a hectic month.

the worst fact is,

it's most probably gonna continue to be like this

for the next 7 months.

still,

no matter how,

I need to find my way to adapt to the situation.

FACEPALM*

and STOP complaining.

thank God,

received a late reply when i have already calm down.

prevent me from being a complaining machine with no work done.

//Tuesday, February 28, 2012 2:12 AM

warmness, that i almost forgotten.

- : geeegee. i dont like today.
  
  : whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy?
  
  : idk
  
  : what happen today? :D
  
  : a few things ? hah.
  
  : dont emo la ahhahah ! :D im here to brighten up your day !

//Sunday, February 26, 2012 10:50 PM

hahah ! got this in facebook.

somehow, it's quite true.

But fck it laa.

i'm pretty sure too, never again (:

// 10:01 PM

I want to be like how I hope I am.

Great, that's it.

Seem to be alright.

but i really do feel the gap.

in fact, further and further apart.

knew it.

//Saturday, February 18, 2012 11:41 AM

That's it. It's over... temporary.

Did i changed ?

Ya, guess so. In fact, more realistic.

People tend to forget what they said, but deadly remember what others promised.

People tend to be blind or take it for granted for every goodness from others,

but counting everyday what great things they have actually done.

I have a bad memory, tend to forget everything.

I forgotten what so ever you have done, but at least i will remember you're a nice person. and that's it.

It's enough to be a strong reason for me to thank you and be nice.

Indeed, I'm pretty lucky.

I have friends around me who are extremely nice.

"People, you are great. Angel in the form of human."

I refer that to many people around me. Though It might be taken as perfunctory words,

I know at the particular moment, I really do think so. I meant it.

The SM.

not forgetting the mia SzeHui, WoonSun and YouChao.

People who really make me feel that my present is appreciated.

"Believe in yourself more, doubt less because

with the right intentions, right attitude and the right thinking, weʼll never go wrong."

someone who are super inspiring told me this.

Had a great day with the SM.

Take care and all the best peeps !

There's so many things imma miss.

To be honest, I'm not gonna miss y'all everyday.

but definitely i will always remember there's someone great at another side of the earth.

Aloha ! (:

//Sunday, February 12, 2012 12:58 PM

Stay strong and keep going.

Every time i hope for a new start,

something happen and it's delayed again and again.

How much i hope you are here for me.

and tell me everything;

and put me out of the sea of misery.

i still remember u told me that

i'm different from all the good friends u have, a special good friend.

I don't really like to tell others about myself,

but i told you a lot. cause i trust u a lot.

Sorry for not being able to tell u everything,

i need to save a back way for myself too, no matter how.

On that moment you told me you don't need an answer for all the confess,

I smiled, but i know, clearly,

that you will definitely need it one day.

it's just... maybe for that moment, you don't need it.

feeling like sending u a text at least.

but the whole stack of assignment and works is killing me.

i hope when i finally got the time to slow down, and take a break,

to talk to you again. the one i know, is still there.

if and only if you understand,

the one i don't trust is myself and not you.

//Friday, February 10, 2012 11:41 PM

It's time to wake up.

Should put a little afford,

and do something for myself in 3 days time.

//Thursday, February 9, 2012 1:39 AM

i feel the pain /:

It was like a dream,

when either one wake up, the story ends.

i knew u will still live well without me.

because i don't see any big differences

between the present or absent of me in your life also.

should start planning my time,

there's so much else i can do (:

//Tuesday, February 7, 2012 10:07 PM

2012, it's a new start.

yet, not a good start.

college started with 3 sciences subject that i'm so not familiar with.

almost fail in pass 2 years.

things are tough.

i'm trying hard to maintain and,

somehow act like "yaa, i can make it !"

people say, "if we want success, we need to believe in ourselves that we can make it."

"to success, we need to work for it"

but, where to starts ?

when all these are almost screwing me up.

you actually pass me a screwdriver. totally screw up.

fyl, u doubt, when i said you are really important.

you doubt, when i said i always do trust you.

i bet the only time u didn't suspect is when i said "I don't trust you"

fyl, that's what u should actually doubt, but you didn't.

well, anything, just hate me mann.

i believe that make things easier.

cause i know what i want, i just,

holding tight and not willing to lose even some.

For everything we gain, we'll lose something, that's fact.

i told myself if being a devil helps, i will.

//Friday, July 15, 2011 7:03 PM

my mum always told me last time,

"Look into my eyes, put your hand in front of your heart, and tell me now..."

3 years ago, the spy game gave me a conclusion,

"Trust them if they say they are not..."

Do it in front of me as what my mum told,

and i'll do it as the thought i got from the game.

and thankyou for giving support for me to trust once again :)

//Friday, July 1, 2011 7:24 PM

該醒過來了,

畢竟昨夜已經過去,

那個夢早就做完了,

沒有理由繼續閉著眼睛..期待什么..

夢依舊是夢，

也依舊只是幻覺，只是幻想，

因為在現實生活中證實了它的不可能，它的不存在

所以勉強地克制自己不去期待什么..

//Wednesday, June 22, 2011 1:26 AM

♥ the song. - You're my sunshine-

cute and sweet enough :)

//Monday, June 20, 2011 1:22 AM

Deja Vu.

oh no, it's that feeling again.

same thing happen again and again. everytime. it's always the same.

the feeling came just so sudden. cant resist at all.

but this time, im glad. Glad that im not alone.

despite the strange feeling,

im happy and super hyper to see you guys doing well.

im glad that none of you give out even there's a last min. plan changes.

im glad that no matter how tired you guys are,

you will still keep practicing once after a short break.

im glad that you guys did not mess up no matter what's goin wrong,

you guys know what to do next,

even you were giving maybe just a min. of discussion time.

with all the effort you guys put in, thank you.

all the supportive action and words from you,

im really touch, really.

cause on that time, i need it badly actually.

Human beingsss, you ppl are what cheers me up :)

As for you, girl,

Emily Ching.

thank you ttm.

you know what, on that time,

half of my mind is filled with your name.

i was asking myself where's emily ching.

until i walked around and ask did anyone saw where were you.

thx god, really thx god.

you were there then.

i dunno what's gonna happen if you weren't there for me,

maybe im not going to appear until everything ends, although i know

that's really irresponsible.

what had happen on that night, i hope it will be a secret between me and you.

idk why, but i know i need to control myself

instead of letting the stupid feeling to control me every time.

ILY, the one who are always there for me.

//Saturday, April 9, 2011 7:22 PM

I love Blair!

Have you seen gossip girl?

Who do you love more? Blair? Or Serena?

My personal fav is Blair! omgosh, she certainly spelled G-L-A-M-O-R-O-U-S!!!

Im loving her outfit!

Actually, whatever she wears, it fits perfectly on her!

I think glamorous is not just about the appearance but also the inner glam beauty.

For example, her attitude! Blair is always so supportive and of course, always-looking-good!

Unlike me T_________T

I WANNA LOOK GLAM TOOOOOOOOOO!

Was browsing through this website earlier and I find it pretty interesting, so yeah....

You guys should check it out too! :P

www.yuberactive.com

Also, there will be a Glam Tour this upcoming Friday @ Taylors Lakeside!

I'm so gonna be there!!! :D :D

Everyone wants to be glamorous but in order to achieve that, first you have to look good at the outside! StarAsia Trend Nation is one of the beauty leading brands in Malaysia and you guys should really try out Rimmel London because its simply GLAMOROUS.

NO, IM NOT JOKING.

TAKE YOUR ACTION NOW, and YOU WILL BE REWARDED.

TRUSTME! :D

//Monday, March 28, 2011 11:40 PM

Yous

hey you, kah senggggg!

Happy Birthday

may all your dream come true :)

okay, i know this is kinda like terrible belated birthday post.

opsy. ;)

..............................................................................................................................................................

you always tell me.

" don't be greedy, accept what you are given,
for the more you ask for, you gonna lose more in something else"

when i ask you to go with me,

you refused, you rejected, and somehow even insulted.

but when you though that i get something through it,

you start requesting.

and hey,

since when we start to be like this?

our conversation always starts with argument,

and ended after a long silent.

the worst is when we don't even talk to each other.

but sitting right beside. or even face to face.

//Tuesday, March 22, 2011 1:45 AM

♥ oh babe ! It's Tue !

it's suppose to be a most hectic day which i hate the most.

but you made my tuesday different :)

wondering is there something like..best-est-est ?

if there's such thing,

and i guess you are the best-est-est, babe :)

//Monday, March 21, 2011 1:13 AM

TROOP CAMP 2011

"Im singing in the rain,

Just singing in the rain."

18 & 19 march - 2 rainy days.

but things still goes on.

What a glorious feeling ,

I'm happy again ! :)

♥ photo credit to Chi Ching

//Sunday, March 13, 2011 10:56 PM

Happy Birthday CAVAN QUEK ;D

opps, i mean, happy belated birthday :)

...

when did it start to be like this?

when holidays do not seem like a holidays anymore.

when i feel something hold me back during the time im playing.

Frictional force ? that slowed me down and even stopped me.

I want to play hard, enjoy, being crazy at times as i wish.

But, how could i ?

if there's an alarm in my mind. ringing.

telling me how sucky i did every time.

//Saturday, March 12, 2011 3:15 AM

What else, except praying ? :(

may everything be alright.

//Tuesday, March 8, 2011 11:23 PM

It's really great.

to pour out and tell everything to a friend,

who can really understand what you are talking despite your "another world language"

Cause it's definitely much better than wallowing in self-pity for the whole life.

Maybe it doesn't sounds important,

Maybe it's just something normal,

but hey,

i never never never tell anyone about it -- it's a secret.

*wink*

ILY max. ♥

//Monday, March 7, 2011 9:20 PM

clicked on the link at the left side of my blog.

what appeared is all something like "blog not found"

i have no idea when do so many people changed their link.

just like sometimes i have no idea what others talking even when we are in a group.

but, maybe that's better in some way.

acting dumb and act like i don't know :)

let it go seem like wasn't that hard to me...

outwardly, at least.

//Sunday, March 6, 2011 12:05 AM

有些事，不知道时很好奇；

知道后，却宁可不知道。

各方面挫败感一时间的涌入

让人措手不及

从前不在乎，

如今为什么却是难受？

到底，

是因为不完美而更完美；

还是因为不完美所以才失败

Being really emotional these day.

Contrast mood can be happen just between a few seconds

"A smile in front of the mirror waiting the person inside the mirror to smile back."

Idk since when it wasn't anymore an effective ways to control the emotions

for everything today,

it have to be a past tense when i open my eyes again in the next morning.

nomatter how shit today was, how bad tml which can be imagine.

we still need to live on.

find the key to run out from those emotions, alone, by ourselves.

for the worst, no one we can depends on except ourselves.

fake a smile,

don't want to say any words to anyone about those shit,

and continue with all the shitty

and when,

im gonna smile again without faking?

peace :)